Some Nights.

“Some Nights”

Some nights I stay up cashing in my bad luck
Some nights I call it a draw
Some nights I wish that my lips could build a castle
Some nights I wish they’d just fall offBut I still wake up, I still see your ghost
Oh, Lord, I’m still not sure what I stand for oh
Whoa oh oh (What do I stand for?)
Whoa oh oh (What do I stand for?)
Most nights I don’t know anymore…
Oh, whoa, oh, whoa, oh, whoa, oh, oh,
Oh, whoa, oh, whoa, oh, whoa, oh, oh

This is it, boys, this is war – what are we waiting for?
Why don’t we break the rules already?
I was never one to believe the hype
Save that for the black and white
I try twice as hard and I’m half as liked,
But here they come again to jack my style

That’s alright (that’s alright)
I found a martyr in my bed tonight
She stops my bones from wondering just who I am, who I am, who I am
Oh, who am I? Mmm… Mmm…

Well, some nights I wish that this all would end
‘Cause I could use some friends for a change.
And some nights I’m scared you’ll forget me again
Some nights I always win, I always win…

But I still wake up, I still see your ghost
Oh, Lord, I’m still not sure what I stand for, oh
Whoa oh oh (What do I stand for?)
Whoa oh oh (What do I stand for?)
Most nights I don’t know… (oh, come on)

So this is it. I sold my soul for this?
Washed my hands of that for this?
I miss my mom and dad for this?

(Come on)

No. When I see stars, when I see, when I see stars, that’s all they are
When I hear songs, they sound like a swan, so come on.
Oh, come on. Oh, come on. Oh, come on!

Well, that is it guys, that is all – five minutes in and I’m bored again
Ten years of this, I’m not sure if anybody understands
This one is not for the folks at home;
Sorry to leave, mom, I had to go
Who the fuck wants to die alone all dried up in the desert sun?

My heart is breaking for my sister and the con that she called “love”
When I look into my nephew’s eyes…
Man, you wouldn’t believe the most amazing things that can come from…
Some terrible nights… ah…

Oh, whoa, oh, whoa, oh, whoa, oh, oh,
Oh, whoa, oh, whoa, oh, whoa, oh, oh

The other night you wouldn’t believe the dream I just had about you and me
I called you up but we’d both agree

It’s for the best you didn’t listen
It’s for the best we get our distance… Oh…
It’s for the best you didn’t listen
It’s for the best we get our distance… Oh…


Sung and written by the group band FUN. 

The song is about the loneliness, uncertainty, and self-doubt that often comes with the painful progress of self-actualization, or fulfilling one’s potential. The protagonist is Nate Ruess himself, as is often the case with his songs. They are all deeply personal.

It’s actually pretty straightforward. “Some Nights” is a personal reflection of Nate’s life, family, career, the sacrifices he made to achieve success, the sometimes disappointing emptiness of that success (how prophetic now that he’s a mega-star), struggles with the choices he made, loss, guilt, even simply the pain of growing up, and hope. The same themes are woven throughout the entire album, some even begun in Aim & Ignite.

I won’t go through every single line, but will focus on the ones that are most representative of the overall meaning.

“Some nights I stay up cashing in my bad luck
Some nights I call it a draw
Some nights I wish that my lips would build a castle
Some nights I wish they’d just fall off”

Some nights he’s performing in concerts, singing the songs he wrote, many of which deal with aforementioned themes. He vacillates between dreams of achieving superstar success in his career, and occasionally wishing he didn’t have the burden of such a dream and the responsibilities and problems that can come with it.

“But I still wake up, I still see your ghost…”

Said “ghost” appears several times, and could be his late mother, or his old self.

This line tricks people up, in conjunction with the war-themed video and the ongoing political and military conflicts in desert regions. It’s got nothing to do with that.

“So this is it?
I sold my soul for this?
Washed my hands of that for this?
I miss my mom and dad for this?”

He left home and everyone he loved, and isn’t sure it was worth it. The success he’s achieved isn’t as fulfilling as he expected. At the time, it wasn’t even the phenomenal success he’d go on to, but still impressive and life-altering. (Also, incidentally, his struggles with faith and religion are a common theme in his work.)

Nate’s very hard on himself in his songs. He’s also incredibly honest, and lays bare a lot of his greatest fears and struggles. At its most basic, “Some Nights” is about those fears, doubts, regrets, and struggles, as well as hope.


Better Education for A Better Future

Education in Indonesia today mostly focuses on subjects that are required to get into college. But frequently, most of the things that are being taught in high school aren’t even things that we will use after we graduate. For instance if we wanted to be a lawyer, then why would we have to be studying about how fast light travels, or how dense the chemical is? But because of the Indonesian Government, of course, we couldn’t really do anything about it.

Most countries such as The United States, has already been using a curriculum that lets their students major by their personal desire, which means that they can choose the subjects they learn in high school based on their target study in university. Other than that matter, I’m still wondering why schools don’t start teaching their students about debts, taxes and paying bills since these are the things that they will actually need in the real world. I mean, why on earth would anyone need to know the size of a shadow when you put it on a certain angle? Unless you want to be like Albert Einstein or Leonardo da Vinci. Maybe some people actually do want to study things like that, but in my opinion, it’s just complete nonsense.

So what I’m trying to say is, we should change the way we learn and change what it is that we learn. Think ahead and think about the future. We as students deserve to choose what we will be studying to help get us to the right road to our dreams. Teach us things that will be useful for us, and things that we will actually use when we are living in the real world. A better education doesn’t always have to mean a better and harder exam question, it could just simply mean practicable lessons.

Amazing Structure: THE EIFFEL TOWER

The Eiffel Tower as seen from the Champ de Mars

The Eiffel Tower is a wrought iron lattice tower on the Champ de Mars in Paris, France. It is named after the engineer Gustave Eiffel, whose company designed and built the tower. The tower is 324 metres (1,063 ft) tall,[3] about the same height as an 81-storey building. Its base is square, 125 metres (410 ft) on a side.

The building stages 

The construction started on the 28th of January 1887 and was completed on March 15th 1889. The opening was on the 31st of March 1889.

The three platforms of the Eiffel Tower


The museum

At the top, there were laboratories for various experiments, and a small apartment reserved for Gustave Eiffel to entertain guests, which is now open to the public, complete with period decorations and lifelike mannequins of Eiffel and some of his notable guests.


Semester Break

During the semester break, I experienced a lot of things that I would never forget. The first few days was relaxing cause I knew that I didn’t have any school work since it’s over! Although, those only lasts a little while, cause a few months ago, I decided to join an organization called JAMADAGNI. A lot of my time has been taken to attend meetings and gatherings for this organization. But it was all worth it. Now, I am a part of them, and let me tell you how.

On the 26th of December 2015, me and eight other people set off to start our primary education to Ciwidey. We were taught and guided by alumni who were previously in my position. We marched hundreds of kilometers and stayed in the wild jungles for eight long days. We were making our own tent out of leaves, making traps, eating trunks and crawling on mud for eight straight days. It was tough and a lot cried now and then but thinking about it now, I would definitely do it again. So, on the morning of January 2nd 2016, on this new year, My friends and I accepted our blue shawls which was the sign that we have completed and learned nature. To me, the ceremony was the part that was most emotional. Many cried, but I didn’t at first, and then I saw my parents there. My parent who lived in Bali came all the way here just for my ceremony. That was when I burst into tears. They have just landed an hour before and headed straight to location.

Well, that’s the story of my Semester break. It was unforgettable.


My Favorite Place

My favorite place is definitely my home. Although, it’s not the house in Bandung that I’m talking about, but it’s the house in Bali. If you haven’t known, I was born and raised in Bali and had lived my whole life there before moving to Bandung for Highschool. So to see a little bit about my home, click the link below.


School Life

15 December 2015 

Today is the day everyone in tenth grade went camping. This activity is called CAMPRT, which is done because of the new curriculum we use. This activity is a must for all tenth graders because it’s a rule from the government and we cannot disobey it. So, we were divided into groups, randomly, not depending on class, which I was happy about cause I got amazing people in my group.

At 6.30AM, we all gathered at the parking area infront of the school for a conditioning. At 7am,when everything was all set and well, we took off heading to the camp site by big and slightly too loud army trucks. I thought it was pretty cool though. After around two hours, we arrived at Bumi Perkemahan Kiara Payung, Jatinangor- Sumedang. Straight after, we started building our tents. Then afterwards, we had the opening ceremony for the activity for around an hour or so. At 12.30pm, after break, we had our first lesson and the one I got was navigating and making maps, which was pretty interesting. At 3pm after the lesson, we did the afternoon prayer for half an hour before we had the Scout Competition which is practically just the navigating lessons I got. Then, at 5.30pm, we were given three hours to cook dinner and eat it also to get ready for the arts performance that we had to do per class. Finally, at 8pm, we had the massive bonfire while doing our performance  around it. At 11pm, when it was already quite late, we could finally go to sleep.

16 December 2015

On this second day, we had to wake up at 4am to do the morning prayer. They gave us time to do our personal business until 5.30am so I decided to start packing my carrier. Then at 5.30am, we all did the morning exercise which was mostly stretching, a little yoga, and mini zumba. After we were done with that, we cooked and ate breakfast from 6am-7.30am. At 8am, we had the’Wide Games’. The wide games are literally just a few different games around the mountain so we had to walk for hours to get to the game site. There were 6 types of games and challenges we had to complete in order o finish and pass this activity. But, seriously we circled a whole mountain. Once we came back we took down the tents and did the closing ceremony. Afterwards, at 2pm, we headed back to school.

This journey had been amazing for me because it gave me new experience and lessons, also new friends. Though it was really tiring, I still enjoyed every second of it and would definitely do it again!